I'm Lost

Here I am, never make a step for my desire

After a long long time, it's really hard to distinguish what is our necessity and what is our desire.

Is it an obstacle? Dunno....

Just lost in here

Many desire that I wanna achieve, Many dreams that must be rescheduled....
School, Job, Family and Home...

Will I get them through by myself

It's really different with the past condition, when school is the only priority....

Some longings maybe skipped for important reasons.

And I lost in this way......


2006.....maybe my first year excellence and soon in 2011.....

but a little bit different here, in 2006 i'm eager to get them, and i had lost my concentration bcoz of this passionate  desire.

2011, i'm just hopeless, consider this will nothing to lose for me, but Thanks God, I past it...

Maybe that's called, Allah is more than know what we want, than us.


I suppose, after years, will i'm ready as like as 2006 or Allah will give His Best at the perfect moment...

And what will happen with my family after that...

I feel too much dependence to my husband, he always gives me everything.....assistances, supports, attentions, makes me sometimes unindependent, will I can get it all through.


Ya Allah...this is my wish....Please bring me to that way and within my family.