Still in remain, my last boss ask me what will I choose, if I really have two options in my life.
And with my truly faith, I said I wanna be a lecturer.....it was 2 years ago I though.
Never imagine, if I insulted the employee who knows only eating blind salary, reading a newspaper at the morning, etc
and I become one of them
but, i know, the instancy will different each other, including the employees
Too much time i've wasted, it's contrary with The thing what will I face with......
I never say, who'll be right and who'll be wrong?
But, the things its sure happen is, there's still much political issue surrounding the civil servant.
Last year, i was in a consultant which most of them are expatriate, eventhough they are really strict, they have a good dicipline, they are extrovert. They always be honest in every chance, and they will never care what your feeling will be, either it's good or it's bad.........
This thing will be my way for 2, 5 years or even whole of my lifetime..........
i dont know will I still be alone to face with this thing, or will I have a good partner to share with.....
I had a friend in a college, i know her since senior high school, she act like she knows everything, and she has a thousand faces and thousand words to say what thing will she decided to reach. i always teased her, how did she act like that........I realized I was really simple and plain personality. i never imagine i would be different person to reach my desire.. I never imagine i could use some kind words to convey my feeling.
Eventhough its for the best thing.
Afterall......... maybe, i had change my desire, i changed my habits, i changed base thinking.......to face this things in front of my eyes, I know my best will not gonna last forever......I know, I couldn't be another person...
Within the new spirit today, I have to rise up, hoping i would enjoy the times that I will spend in here...........
